So here I am …..ahhhhhhh.
After exactly one year from when we started principle photography on I WAS BROKEN, with only 2 more days until we have a finished master lock on visuals and sound mix,
God puts us to the ultimate test. A test “who is really in control?”. Me or HIM.
Now, 35,000 feet in the air on my way home from New Jersey leaving early from a shoot dodging the latest hurricane “Sandy” Praise God I made it out in time, let alone shooting the streets of Trenton New Jersey which was more dangerous than being in a hurricane, I managed to sit in Dallas airport putting final mix touches on the last 20 minutes of the film when a buzz sound in the headphones when down my spine and Pro Tools (audio editing software) froze up like the arctic.
Everything gone. The whole movie! The hard drive will not mount anymore.
Oddly, I am not freaking out at least as much you would think I should.
I know God has His hand on it and has a plan on dealing through this.
I am going in to a shop in the morning tomorrow to see what my options are.
Most of the time they can recover the file. It’s a time and money issue. Could be $500-$5000 or more. We have contingencies.
I know… why didn’t I back it up? I did… except with me traveling so much I just kept the last days one the one drive.
Anyways. This is just a last minute reminder that God wants to test us that this is HIS movie not ours. Sometimes I get so passionate and have good intentions but am I really focused the reality and truth? This time has only made me come to him in reverence and trust. Something I know I need at this moment.
Psalm 62:1,2 “My soul waits in silence for God only; from Him cometh my salvation. He is my rock and shelter, He is my high tower, I shall not be shaken.”
The Psalm goes on praising God and then repeats, “He is my rock and shelter, He is my high tower, I shall not be shaken.” 62:11 it says “God has spoken once, Twice have I hear this, That power belong to the Lord.”
So who’s really in control? The one that protects us and loves us. Nothing will tear me down. I heard when the bible repeats itself… it’s probably really important.
This was one on my mom’s favorite verses… hence the tattoo on my wrist as a reminder.
Prayer time that I can recover some file tomorrow and that it’s not expensive.
NOV 1st is our deadline.